Infinite Universe

Silverleaves Beach at Sunset

I was born searching for my star and was offered this galaxy.
It was almost too much to cope with at times.
And me, just the tiniest speck amid this vast gathering.
Way too minute to register on the universal radar.
Insignificant. But, breathing all the same.
My steady lup dup heart mimicking
the pulsing of distant unknown stars.
Protons, electrons and neutrons circling each other.
Repelling, attracting, pinging.
All vying in a game of one-upmanship.
Different formula, same dance moves
conjuring up the next spontaneous combustion.
A big bang, a tiny pop. An apocalypse perhaps.
Every now and then an unexpected turbulence or, a devastation.
Perhaps a sixth dimension intervention.
Exquisite, ephemeral, eternal, ineffable.
I was born searching for my star, was offered this galaxy
and ended up with an infinite universe.










I realise that
Doubt is that
Insidious emotive
Out of control
That creeps
Into my being
Stemming from fear
Of the unknown
Rising like bile of the soul
Robbing me of being whole
No way to console
The toll is great
Like a hole
In my being
When there is no way of seeing
The path before me
And what I hold so dearly
Is to see, to be
At one, at peace
To have release
And the skill is
To transcend this
When it overcomes me
More worthwhile
To see doubt for what it is
Transient, self limiting, futile
I must temper it
With faith
Pamper it with hope
Hold tight to the rope
Struggle and climb
Back to the sublime
Where there is meaning
A state of being
Clear seeing

(c) Ajanta Judd Words & Image